Deep Thoughts And A Prayer

This might be long, but I thought of no better way to than to blog my feelings. Its okay if you dont read, this is really just for me.

Today at MOPS we had a pastor come and speak on death and loss. After hearing him speak, I realized how much difference there was between what he was saying and what I have been taught in the church. I have such a greater understanding and a deeper testimony on death after listening to him. There is a peace that I have knowing what happens when someone dies. Its hard to deal with a death, but isnt it wonderful knowing what we know in the Gospel? When the pastor was speaking, it was always "we dont know" and "no one knows." But I know. I know because I have a testimony. I know because I belong to the True Church.

After MOPS, I called my dad to share my feelings and he answered quietly. He said he was in the hospital with Dovey, my step mom. I knew my dad was in California and I thought something had happened to my grandma. I then called my brother and he told me DOVEY was in the hospital and grandma is fine. I need all of you to please say a prayer for my step mom. She is the most amazing woman and such a great example to everyone. She has so much love to give and has always been a huge supporter in my life. She is truly the most amazing woman I know. She's kind, thoughtful, loving and so very Christ-like. I wish all of you could know her. She is so easy to love. I so badly wish I could be there with her during this time. I would hate to lose her and never be able to say goodbye. These are the times I wish I lived closer. My family means so much to me, despite how dysfunctional we all are and all of our many flaws.

I found it odd that our conversation at MOPS was about death and loss. I had shared how lucky I am to never have lost anyone super close to me. I have gone through loss with friends and distant family, but no one like a child or parent or spouse. I wouldnt know what I would do if I lost someone so close. Dovey is such an amazing woman and she means so much to me.

I challenge you all to this one thing: Write a letter to the people that mean something to you.TODAY! Express to them what they have meant to you in your life and how much you love them. Apologize if there have been any fights or issues.

Thank you for your prayers.