So I got my hair cut yesterday. I knew I would be taking a risk because the only person who I like cutting my hair is my brother in law Mike (check Metropolitan Salon on my list of blogs I follow). But Mike doesnt live here, so I had to find someone else. My hair was finally (and I say finally because I had been growing it out for almost 2 years after I had it cut short when I was pregnant with Luke). When I went it I wanted somewhat of an A frame type layer, but longer so that I could pull it back in a ponytail. Well that didnt happen. What DID happen however was that she cut my hair as short as it was when I started growing it out, so basically I have to wait another TWO FREAKING YEARS to grow out again! At least she cut it well. She did do a great job!
Now some of you might be saying "dont worry, it will grow out." I am someone who has a lot of self esteem issues as it is, so my hair is actually something I take a lot of pride in, and so when my hair is ugly, I FEEL ugly. I am having a hard enough time with my weight and recent acne breakout, and not THIS! I just want to cry.
When someone says "you look great" or "I love your haircut!" I wish I could reply "thank you so much!" but instead I glare and it makes problems worse. So why cant we see what other people see in ourselves? My husband says I look "hot" (which I totally disagree on), I just wish I could see what he sees. I wish I could have the kind of confidence that people see in me. I guess I am good at hiding it or something?
Dont ask to see pictures. I really hate my hair, but I am sure I will come around and post a picture eventually. I just dont want to remind myself that its short again.
Smile! You're a beauty :)
ReplyDeleteGirl I didn't know you blogged!! How fun!!
ReplyDeleteI had medium to long hair most of my life (except the incident in 4th grade when I got a boy cut). Anyway, last year I chopped it all off to a short, Victoria Beckham bob. I was scared how it would make me look and feel, until Brent told me he actually preferred short hair. Not that he didn't like it long, but he REALLY liked it short. Go figure!
ReplyDeleteAs for the breakouts, I feel your pain. What's hard is that I can't use any acne creams because of the baby. My dermatologist recommended power facial brushes (Clarisonic runs for $200) but I found a couple that were only $30-$50 and did the same type of job. I picked one up at Sally's made by i-Skin, and there's also one on Amazon made by Pretika. So far I've been happy with the results. Before, my face wash wasn't completely cleaning my face, which I'm sure clogged up my pores. But after adding the brush into the mix, my face feels SO MUCH cleaner. I don't scrub and scrub with the brush -- that would tear up your skin. It's more like gently gliding it in circles on your face. I watched some Clarisonic video and just copied what they did.
Good luck. I hope you're feeling better soon. You may not want to hear it, but I can't fathom any possible way that you could look anything short of beautiful.
Girl, you are nothing short of gorgeous and I wouldn't just say that. I remember the first time I saw you and you were all big and pregnant (just like me) and you looked absolutely amazing. I was so jealous! Courtney you are seriously beautiful and I'm anxious to see your hair.
ReplyDeleteoh honey I totally understand! My hair is the one thing I love about myself no matter what so if it got butchered I would be in your camp. I'm sure that it will take some time to get used to it. Just try to remember that there are many other things that make you beautiful. Love you!!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that your hair didn't turn out the way you wanted, but I'm positive that it looks so cute. I always thought that shorter hair looked so good on you so don't worry, it'll just take some time to get used to and I'm sure in about two weeks you'll love it.
ReplyDeleteI totally know how you feel. I cut my hair right before I had Livie. I got off 12 inches and I hated my hair cut. It for sure made my confidence go down too. I hope you feel better soon though. I got use to my hair after a while.
ReplyDeleteNo matter what hairdo you have, you are still my little pretty girl, and I Love you! Don't worry. Be happy! Love, Mom
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