Today has been a great day, but there have been a lot of thoughts on my mind that I havent shared with a lot of people. Within this last week we have had some hard news from family. I dont want to go into details for privacy reasons, but I have a hard time understanding why there is so much bad around us. Everyone is struggling and suffering, not just with the economy, but life in general. When did life start getting so tough? I am watching everyone around me suffer and struggle and my mind just doesnt know how to handle it or even process whats going on or why. I feel as though within my own life, I am barely holding on, but to watch people who I love and admire struggle is something entirely different. Everything I thought I knew, I am starting to question and wonder if its even real. When did life get so complicated?
This got me thinking as I sat in a dark movie theater watching the movie "Up!" there were so many cute things, but my mind couldnt let go of reality. There were so many things that I kept saying "oh that would never happen in real life." When did I loose my imagination?
I am not exactly sure why I am writing this, but its been hard week and I am just praying for some miracles in my life. I'll take anything.
hey girly, i am so sorry, i totally feel you though, even though i dont know waht is going on with you. All I know is that as long as you stay faithful and honor your temple covenants that everything WILL be ok, maybe not at this moment, but when its all said and done everything will be ok. Im not trying to preach, and im so not a good scripture person, but there are a few scriptures that have helped me, i dont know where it says this (your rm hubby will probably know) but it talks about tithing and how if we will pay an honest tithe that heavenly father will pour out blessings that we wont have room to recieve them. I would lay my life down on this concept because I have seen it. I dont feel like if we pay thithin then that means we will be rich, or have a perfect life, but I have seen this work in so many ways. If you put the LORD first in your life and put what he wants you to do before what you want, he will protect you when you need it, strengthen you when you need to be, help you when you need the help, maybe not in the ways you think you need it, but how he knows you need it. When we dont follow the will of the father there is no gaurentee (cant spell). My family is also going through SO SO SO much right now, and me and Andrew are definatly feeling this crappy market, but one thing is for sure- I have no worries about getting through it, I have no worries about my family getting through all they are going through, sure it will suck along the way, but as long as we stay faithful in this gospel, faithful to God, faithful to each other.....we will get through this, How blessed we are! Any way sorry for the novel, I love you, You are one of the funniest people I know and its always so great to see you. Good luck with all this, this thing called "life".
ReplyDeleteWhat do they say, something like, "after the trial of your faith...." I know what you mean. I've been thinking a lot about this lately. We have some really close friends who are really having a hard time. I wonder, "why them and why now?" It strengthens me in the Gospel because although we have hard times too, we are promised blessings if we are faithful.
ReplyDeleteI love you girl. Take care.
Andrea
Hey I'm coming to visit you... that's an effing miracle. Don't get discouraged. Things happen because we are meant to be tested. Everything will start looking better soon. Be optimistic. You tell me that all the time now don't start being a hypocrite.
ReplyDeleteYou'll get through this. How does the saying go? When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang in there!
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