Favorite Things

There is a place out here that brings back so many wonderful memories of growing up. One of my favorite memories is of my family boating. We used to own a boat and we'd go on trips with our ward is Issy or sometimes just for FHE. My favorite time of day was at sunset though. The water was warmer than outside and it was almost like a jacuzzi. We'd listen to great music, eat some KFC and enjoy each others company. I hope to establish something that special with my own family someday.

I am really enjoying finding new music for the summer. Right now and I have just a few songs on repeat because it juts moves me!

"Lucky" by jason mraz and colbie caillat

"Need" by hana pestle

"Broken Strings" jame morrison and nelly furtado

"Wanted' Jessie James

"Battlefield" Jordin Sparks

"Jai Ho! (You Are My Destiny)" from Slumdog Millionaire (feat. Nicole Scherzinger from Pussycat Dolls)

Those are just a few I cant seem to get off repeat. LOL

Things are looking brighter. Everyday is a struggle. I am finding that the Lord is blessing me with special people in my life. I am truly grateful for them and for the love and fulfillment I feel. Lets just hope and pray that it gets better and better and better.

PS- I am sorry I havent posted any pictures recently, I am on a photography low. I need to get my butt out there and just shoot!

Cha-Cha-Cha- Changes

I am trying some new stuff out with the blog but it may take a few times to get it all the way I want. FYI

A Miracle, My Angel

Her name is Christine.

A few days ago I was bored and took the kids to the playground at the mall (same day I posted about my struggles). There was an active little kid that reminded me of Luke. By the end of the playtime, I had exchanged numbers with a very friendly kind woman who had just moved here from Vegas. We had a play date for our kids for Friday.

Friday rolls around and we meet at McDonalds play place (where else to go on a cloudy day). I found out she's also Mormon! So I spill my guts about how I've been struggling (which is probably not a good idea with a new friend, but for some reason I felt like we'd been friends for a long time). She totally related to me and also been through a lot in the church. And it hit me hard the word she was saying. The things she was telling me sunk in so deep. She reminded me of myself in high school, strong, grounded, happy, spiritual and faithful. Something she told me that I dont think I will ever forget is that we all go through crappy stuff, but we dont know why until later. And its later that we realize that we've been a servant for the Lord the whole time. (Okay, so maybe I didnt say it exactly like she did, but darn close).

After being with her, I felt like I was a new person. I had hope and light in my life. As if I was on the right track again. It scares me to think about if I hadnt met her. Where would I have gone, what road would I have chosen? Would I have completely left the church?

The Lord sent her to me, to be my personal living angel. I will be eternally grateful to Him and to her.

Some Thoughts

Today has been a great day, but there have been a lot of thoughts on my mind that I havent shared with a lot of people. Within this last week we have had some hard news from family. I dont want to go into details for privacy reasons, but I have a hard time understanding why there is so much bad around us. Everyone is struggling and suffering, not just with the economy, but life in general. When did life start getting so tough? I am watching everyone around me suffer and struggle and my mind just doesnt know how to handle it or even process whats going on or why. I feel as though within my own life, I am barely holding on, but to watch people who I love and admire struggle is something entirely different. Everything I thought I knew, I am starting to question and wonder if its even real. When did life get so complicated?

This got me thinking as I sat in a dark movie theater watching the movie "Up!" there were so many cute things, but my mind couldnt let go of reality. There were so many things that I kept saying "oh that would never happen in real life." When did I loose my imagination?

I am not exactly sure why I am writing this, but its been hard week and I am just praying for some miracles in my life. I'll take anything.

One Year Ago...

One year ago my little buddy Luke Taylor was born. It all started at 3 am. He is such a funny little guy. Hes a sweety, a cutie and my little man. I am so lucky to have him. His brown eyes and big smile warm my heart every single day.

Sunday Walk

We took the dogs for a walk today. My in-laws and the kids. It was a 3 mile walk and a great day to do it too. It was about 70 with a nice breeze. Kylee and the dogs were so tired after it. I tried getting some pictures of Kylee, but she wouldnt stand still or cooperate for me.